Hindsight the Greatest Gift

How many times can you look back and see that some of your greatest gifts were found after a time of struggle? We find a mentor, a teacher or a way of coping that can turn us in a direction that becomes a life calling, a lifting of our soul in ways we could have never imagined.

For me personally it was my brokenness. The pain my body felt became the impetus to learning. I searched for a remedy for the pain. The medical model of doctors and X rays and medication, thank god, could not find a solution to the pain I was feeling, so I continued to look, to complain, to reach out for help and a solution.

I was willing to try just about anything…. Like many of my clients, I found myself doubting myself, doubting the need to feel better, hearing again and again, its just the aging process get used to it. We (the doctor) do not see anything of concern, among some of the nicer ways of turning away a patient.

I remember the person I worked with said “its a good thing I worked with you before I looked at the X rays and test results.” Having worked with you I could see there was an issue, a physical issue that could not be faked, even though I can not see proof of the damage with the tests. The tests look fine. But….having worked with you, I can see it, feel it and will work to heal it.

My symptom was a problem and pain when walking, and movement was restricted, to the point that I would often cry out in pain with the simplest of motion. It was embarrassing, it even became an excuse to put distance in my relationship, from both sides. What I found though was almost unbelievable. My range of motion issue, my lack of movement, my pain, was not “just” physical, it was also emotional. All this was compounded by recent loses of my mom to cancer and my dad two years later to a severe fall after surviving Cancer 18 years prior, to a step mother who died one year later because after being told she would die if she began smoking again….picked up a cigarette and didn’t stop smoking until she was no longer with us. Fear and sadness filled my being even as I filled my heart with love of my son, love of the family still with me, love and encouragement of friends. Even a thriving business couldn’t obliterate the feelings of loss, the feelings of fear, afraid of walking the same path.

But, thankfully, I took the time for me. I took the time and spent the money to heal even when I could not see the results, yet.

Today, I can and do freely admit out loud many times a week, perhaps a day somedays, that the gift of that pain, that suffering and disappointment was to introduce me to a healing modality that I continue to use on a daily basis, for myself and for my clients. That search, brought me learning. That search opened doors to teachers, modalities and remembrance of skills within yet uncovered. In hindsight, I can see without the pain I would never have found my gift as a healer, intuitive and teacher.

Robin is the founder of Spirit of the Lotus. She is a hands on healer, medical intuitive, Shaman, Medium and Spiritually Guided Coach as well as being an Advanced Soul Coach(R), Adv. Past Life Coach(R) & Holographic Sound Healer. 00