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Why Wait for a Dark Night?

Why do we wait so long before we reach out to get help?  I’ve heard again and again that we wait until there’s a dark night of the soul.  Until we can’t survive a moment longer without doing something.  Change… yes, it’s inevitable. 

How we change and when we change can be a choice. No, don’t roll your eyes, I know you’ve heard it before.  I know, I’ve been there, and more times than I would like to admit.  Yep, I resonate with the whole wounded healer thing.

I had excuses for the pain.  I really did unload tractor trailer trucks of 50-pound steel drums, stacked above my head, by slamming them into my legs before they landed on the ground.  One week my legs were so bruised and in so much pain that I rolled a kneeling pad into a denim apron to cushion the impact.  I couldn’t stop working, I owned the business.  I couldn’t hire someone, it wasn’t making money, yet.  Even with family help, I broke.  There was a legitimate reason for the pain in my body.  But no matter how many doctors I saw, there was no solution, there was no diagnosis.  I look back now and say, thank God.

Why?  Because the physical pain I felt was the surface work.  The real pain was hidden, emotional, old mixed with new.  Roots that went deep and rarely if ever surfaced.  They were hidden, ignored, buried and even if I’d known I wouldn’t have understood.  Understanding took hindsight and a lot of work.  Yes, it took many dark nights of the soul.

That’s why, when I found a safe place and began to heal, I did everything and wanted more.

There is an understanding in the Shamanic world….. we do the work, the heavy healing, the really deep dredging and unearthing of the pain and trauma, so that our clients, years later in our practice can think, “That’s easy”.  Yes, every once in a while, I’m working with a client and they have such a breakthrough with a simple treatment and I think to myself…. “Wow, I wish mine had been so easy.”  Then I think again and in hindsight I see my journey of learning.

So, again, I ask “Why wait for a dark night of the soul?”.  Are you in pain?  Are you frustrated with your life? Perhaps merely satisfied and not excited, wondering, is this all there is?  Am I meant to do or be more?  Are you getting nudged and just don’t know what it all means?

I’d love to sit down with you.  Perhaps all you need is a little spiritual guidance, or an illumination to see your world a little clearer.  I have regular office hours for one on one sessions and I’m always happy to take a moment to chat on the phone to see if the fits right.  Reach out before the dark night or after it, if you’re in pain, confused, frustrated, I can help.  To make an appointment call Robin 860-709-3903.

Robin is the founder of Spirit of the Lotus. She is a hands-on healer, medical intuitive, Shaman, Medium and Spiritually Guided Coach as well as being an Advanced Soul Coach(R), Adv. Past Life Coach(R) & Holographic Sound Healer. Spirit of the Lotus is in Columbia CT.  Appointments can be made by calling 860-709-3903.

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I found this lovely definition online: Channeling is a natural form of communication between humans and angelic beings, nature spirits, non-physical entities, or even animals and pets. A channeler is very similar to a language translator or interpreter. They allow themselves to sense the non-verbal communication from another being and then translate it into human words.

Channelers, are sometimes thought of as psychic mediums, receiving messages from “spirit guides,” friendly spirits who give them knowledge and help them on their spiritual journeys. Channeling is the belief that a person’s body is being shared by spirit for the purpose of imparting wisdom. It’s been my experience that messages being given by good channels are always up lifting, encouraging, loving and compassionate. Spirit, high level Spirit Guides will never feel heavy or bring fear. If you ever receive a channeled message that demands, accuses or feels heavy, that message is being given thru a person who’s filter is still heavy with fear and their own issues.

I have a wonderful circle of Spiritually Enlightened friends that love to learn and teach. They and now I as well, take joy in creating a sacred, safe place to learn, to ask, to teach and to figure out just how big our world really is. Miracles are only miracles until they become common place.

The first time I was able to channel, allow spirit to show me their energy, when they let me feel their presence, it was almost overwhelming….the amount of love that they emanate is incredible. I thought I knew what unconditional love felt like, but, I was wrong. The love I felt was so light and created such joy within me I can not find the words to adequately describe it. To some its so beautiful it brings tears of joy.

If you’d like to join us for a channeling session, or if you have questions, please feel free to call me. Robin 860-709-3903

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7 Raven’s a Hawk and a Cardinal

7 Raven’s, a Hawk and a Cardinal, sounds like the start of a bad joke doesn’t it. Well as I sat deep in meditation Sunday morning, I was brought out by such a racket. All seven of the local raven’s were creating such a stir, a racket so loud that I had to get up and see what was disturbing them so much. As I watched, they appeared to be having fun, no cat in sight….. Then a beautiful Red Shouldered Hawk glided in and sat right in the middle of the 7. They continued for a moment, then all sat, quietly, looked my way, as if to say….yep, go get your binoculars, there is something to see here. I did. I spent moments in complete awe of such beautiful birds, so large, looking soft, then, a streak of red. I followed the direction it took me and saw the most brilliantly colored Cardinal, almost orange it was so bright. What a gift. I finished my meditation while watching these incredible birds.

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Hello world!

I am so excited to sit down today and write, it’s been awhile. My life, it’s still a little chaotic. January 5th I celebrated the sale of my industrial equipment company, the last of the finishing touches to my divorce. This transition hasn’t been easy. But, it has given me an opportunity to figure out who I am, what I want my life to be in this world that is so big.

I began, with a good life, by all intent and purpose, most say I am crazy to have left it. The gaul to want more. Yes, my life looked great, an amazing son, one any mother would be proud of, a successful business, a beautiful home, 30 years of marriage. It was good, but somewhere deep within I wanted extraordinary. I wanted more than success, I wanted to wake up every morning with the passion to live, fully, sensually, honestly.

I wanted to speak my truth. Use my voice in a positive manner. I was creating my healing practice as part time business, trying to maintain both. I continue for a short while still, to manage both, but my heart is with Spirit of the Lotus. As the lotus struggles out of the mud reaching for the sun….so too am I struggling to create the business that houses my true passion. As a Hands on Healer and Shaman, my intuition and ability to Channel has created a healing practice that is deep, fulfilling and sometimes even comical. The laughter is a gift, some don’t quite understand, but a gift no less.

I recently took a personal mastery class with Colette Baron-Reid, using her Wisdom of the Oracle, oracle card deck for deeper learning. Her card #14 Truth Be Told, which states “There is The Truth, which is the essence of a thing and there is a TRUTH, subjective according to the philosophy of the adherent or believer.”  I believe that.  Even in our intuition, or as a medium, our messages come thru the filter of our experiences, until, that is, that we are able to step aside, and read without influence.  My truth is based on my experience.  My triggers, by my beliefs and judgements.

My truth is, I love money, I appreciate my home, it felt good being successful, but deeper yet…. I love being of service.  I love helping a 14 year old states away, healing a women in Canada while I’m in Connecticut, I’m humbled by the person who comes in with a diagnosis and leaves with a smile, I’m even more humbled by the client that heals and make the conscious decision to move to another realm, one we may never comprehend.  Working with people makes my heart sing…  I know that abundance shows up and looks different for each and every one of us.

My truth was tempered by my programming.  My truth was modulated by my wish to be loved, even liked and by fear.

How do you speak your truth?  What truth are you reaching for? Hiding?



If you are in transition, afraid to take a leap, if your faith needs a little bolster, or perhaps a Past Life Regression will help you understand a deep seated fear or longing.  Call me and set up an appointment.  I may be able to help in person or distance.

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